Not too much going on....an emotional vent...

So here in the great town of Aberdeen, not much is going on. Clouds and some needed mist is all. I sit here in this house everyday, doing the same thing over and over again. Dishes, Laundry ect. And its litereally driving me insane. Or so it feels. Not only do i do that everyday, but im getting to the point in my pregnancy where there isnt much I can do. I have to "take it easy". Which is pretty hard for me because i'm a pretty independent person. Brian leaves for work about 8 am and doesnt get home until 6:30ish pm.

Id love to have people come over, but i have exiled some of the main people in my life, who weren't very good influences to my family. So there is a sacrifice. One that will pay off. I would be more social, but I dont work, or go to school, and it makes it hard to connect with people.

So, I have this world surrounding me(my home) and i make it my own. And its fun for a little bit, then it gets boring again. Ethan is bored out of him mind as well. He will be starting school in september, which hopefully will fullfill his social needs as a young learning human.

But everytime i get down about how"boring" my life gets, i remind myself that God will never give me more than i can handle. And this is his plan for me for now. Being a mother. Being a wife. Being the teacher of my family. I look around at my home, my family and i am blessed. Blessed beyond what i would have ever thought. I am grateful for what the Lord has done in my life. Where we were at a year ago till now is an amazing improvment, and it happened because of my faith in the Lord and his amazing workings.

I look at Ethan and instead of moping around wondering where my life is goin, i can spend time with my son. I know what it is like to not be able to tell your child goodbye before they leave this earth. And if Ethan was to be taken from me, i want to make sure i tell him i love him. I want to make sure that i spent as much time with him as possible. At night, it could be the last time I look into his precious eyes and tell him"sweet dreams, i love you".

When Brian is home, i never forget to tell him how much he means to me, and how much i love him. He goes to work everyday, who knows what is to happen. I will never go to bed in a fight with Brian. He will always know, no matter what, i love him.

And this unborn blessing. This could be the one child, who will grow up to be the one to cure cancer, or AIDS or be the one to bring world peace.

Everything in my life i am grateful for.

These are the things i think about, when not much is going on.

I am truley blessed.